I was never a problem child but I did have problems. I was molested which caused anxiety, depression, low self-esteem, and anger. After having my first daughter I lost her father to prison. After losing him I met back up with my best friend of 4 years who vowed to be there for my daughter. Sticking to his promise we got married, broke up, got back together, and repeated the cycle. I suffered seven years of domestic violence trying to make my marriage work. Failing to do so I am now fighting in a divorce.
I was so fed up after many false promises that he would leave and give me the home for me and the children, so I packed me and my children's things and went to a homeless shelter. Trying to avoid confrontation, I became jobless for two months without any help from my husband while he lived in the home that we built together. Making the move away from my husband was a hard life lesson and definition of real struggles for myself, my children, and our future outcome. We relied on him and he was our comfort. The stability he provided kept me in a bondage but something better had to come out of it.
As a mother I wanted to stay married for my children, as a young girl I wanted to stay married because of God, and as a woman I decided to get a divorce to better myself. If I ever accomplished anything in life it was taking a stand and doing what had to do for my children and my happiness. I not regret anything about my marriage. I have learned my worth and how to choose someone that is worthy having of me. I learned not to settle and how to keep my relationship health and alive.
I am extremely happier than I was before and I know now not to force something when it does not feel right. Gaining my independence was a magical feeling that goes beyond explanation.
Not wanting to be a sinner or being judged made me feel like I had no choice but to everyone has a choice. Now that I have been through all of these struggles no problem is too big!
Moving forward, I encourage all who I was never a problem child but I did have problems. I was molested which caused anxiety, depression, low self-esteem, and anger. After having my first daughter I lost her father to prison. After losing him I met back up with my best friend of 4 years who vowed to be there for my daughter. Sticking to his promise we got married, broke up, got back together, and repeated the cycle. I suffered seven years of domestic violence trying to make my marriage work. Failing to do so I am now fighting in a divorce.
I was so fed up after many false promises that he would leave and give me the home for me and the children, so I packed me and my children's things and went to a homeless shelter. Trying to avoid confrontation, I became jobless for two months without any help from my husband while he lived in the home that we built together. Making the move away from my husband was a hard life lesson and definition of real struggles for myself, my children, and our future outcome. We relied on him and he was our comfort. The stability he provided kept me in a bondage but something better had to come out of it.
As a mother I wanted to stay married for my children, as a young girl I wanted to stay married because of God, and as a woman I decided to get a divorce to better myself. If I ever accomplished anything in life it was taking a stand and doing what had to do for my children and my happiness. I do not regret anything about my marriage. I have learned my worth and how to choose someone that is worthy of having me. I learned not to settle and how to keep my relationship health and alive.
I am extremely happier than I was before and I know now not to force something when it does not feel right. Gaining my independence was a magical feeling that goes beyond explanation.
Not wanting to be a sinner or being judged made me feel like I had no choice but to everyone has a choice. Now that I have been through all of these struggles no problem is too big!  Moving forward, I encourage all women in their situations to take a stand and demand a king, worth of a queen or let them WALK.

Dear Heavenly Father,
I come in the Precious Name of Jesus, just wanting to Thank you for watching over me last night and waking me up to see another day. I welcome the Sweet Holy Spirit to enter into this earthern vessel. Bless me Lord Jesus to be in proper alignment with what was written of me from the beginning of time. Thank you for giving me true understanding that my sins are forgiven. The shedding of your blood made it all possible and I have Your Power living within me to say No.  All I have to do is want to give up all ungodly spirits that have me bound. When I was drinking alcohol and got tired…I brought to you and you gradually took it. When I wanted to give up drugs…I gave to you and again you took it…helped me to let it go. I am a living witness that you are gentle and kind and my past is the past. Lord Jesus… I have come to realize you are my only friend, all others are acquaintances. You use them and family to shape and mold me into who you know that I am.  Thank you for blessing me to look past the drama and see the Awesome Hand of God. This has only been accomplished by spending more time with you. Sometimes it’s in study time and sometimes it’s in quietness, shutting everything out. No T.V., no radio… finding my own secret place wherever it may be. You are the only gentleman I know that shows up like you keeping an appointment, like I’m special. I will rejoice in this day cause I know that your going to spend it with me. The fact that there are billions and billions of people on this earth does not keep you from coming to see about me. For that…I will seek your Face. 
                                                                                                                              Love you dearly… Me.     

Patrese