​Lent means a lot of things to different people. As we go in and out of this season many sacrifices are

being made. Me…didn’t seems like I was following anyone thing right, even when I wanted to.  So I sat

still long enough to look around to see, what am I missing?

My schedule was being changed by Almighty God. Like someone cleaning out the closet He was taking

away what wasn’t important. What felt like I was letting someone down, was replaced with His intense

boldness to let me know, He was doing it. My season was filled, not with quantity but with quality. The

very things that pertained to me and my destiny. An example: four times I had stopped by a place to

rent out for functions. No one was ever there! But going from point A to point B, heading to point C

(you know how we do) I get instructions from God to turn and stop. Mind you, I had just left a card in

their mailbox at 11am. The lot was full at 3:30pm for a function and the owner was present in her office.

Now it doesn’t matter weather I felt like I had a lot of free time (really). We got it wrong; for the hours

of the day belong to Him. Once I told the devil to shut up - all in my head. I told myself to relax, and to watch

and listen to God. Two hours later we left with a verbal agreement of renting her building for my

functions. But more than that we had an encounter with God, she was speaking into my life and I into

her. Nice when there is no hidden agenda’s!  See I have this understanding with God that I will have a

building. I was MORE concerned as to why He wanted me there, then.  Instead of me multi- tasking, God was

and I finally understood…*Seek Ye the kingdom of God first*!

Ask yourself! Is any part of my day being concerned with His kingdom - or just my selfish ambitions?  Am I

taking the time to patiently listen to someone hurting inside?  Are you taking the time to pray with

someone? You might be like their Drano... because they feel like… they’re all clogged up? Are you following

His commandment to love one another, not just who you want, or who is easy for you to love?  Are you stressed out because you

please everyone else, but Him. Feeding the homeless doesn’t mean they are all on the streets…I worked

everyday and after paying my bills, had $20.00 dollars to last till next payday.  A lot of temptations and

life decisions are made payday to payday.

The season is about HE DIED AND HE LIVES! Not what day it was, not what we are eating. I could go on and

on and on.... like what we think we know. To the Church - and each individual, we need to ask ourselves…is my

life reflecting Him -- JESUS CHRIST?? Or, am I just an earthen vessel in an outfit with a smile. Where are the wailing

women, the prayer warriors, the sidewalk prophets? We look so much like the world. I feel God saying

refuel, reboot, reconnect to Him. Young people are dying at an early age; speak life into all you can.

Simply look at them and saying “God bless You” will bring some life change. Yes, cause I believe HE IS RISEN and

HIS WORD DOES NOT RETURN TO HIM VOID!

​Lent means a lot of things to different people. As we go in and out of this season many sacrifices are

being made. Me…didn’t seems like I was following anyone thing right, even when I wanted too.  So I sat

still long enough to look around to see, what am I missing?

My schedule was being changed by Almighty God. Like someone cleaning out the closet He was taking

away what wasn’t important. What felt like I was letting someone down, was replaced with His intense

boldness to let me know, He was doing it. My season was filled, not with quantity but with quality. The

very things that pertained to me and my destiny. An example is, four times I had stopped by a place to

rent out for functions. No one was ever there? But going from point A to point B, heading to point C

(you know how we do) I get instructions from God to turn and stop. Mind you I had just left a card in

their mailbox at 11am. The lot was full at 3:30pm for a function and the owner was present in her office.

Now it doesn’t matter wheather I felt like I had a lot of free time (really). We got it wrong, for the hours

of the day belong to Him. Once I told the devil to shut up, all in my head. Told myself to relax and watch

and listen to God. Two hours later we left with an verbal agreement of renting her building for my

functions. But more than that we had an encounter with God, she was speaking into my life and I into

her. Nice when there is no hidden agenda’s.!  See I have this understanding with God that I will have a

building. I was MORE concerned why He wanted me there, then.  Instead of me multi- tasking, God was

and I finally understood…*Seek Ye the kingdom of God first*!

Ask yourself! Is any part of my day being concerned with His kingdom or my selfish ambitions.  Am I

taking the time to patiently listen to someone hurting inside.  Are you taking the time to pray with

someone, you might be like their Drano cause they feel like… they’re all clogged up? Are you following

His commandment to love one another, not just who you want.  Are you stressed out because you

please everyone else, but Him. Feeding the homeless doesn’t mean they are all on the streets…I worked

everyday and after paying my bills, had $20.00 dollars to last till next payday.  A lot of temptations and

life decisions are made payday to payday.

The season is about HE DIED AND HE LIVES! Not what day it was, not what we eating. I could go on and

on and on what we think we know. To the Church and each individual, we need to ask ourselves…is my

life reflecting JESUS CHRIST! Am I just an earthern vessel in an outfit with a smile. Where are the wailing

women, the prayer warriors, the sidewalk prophets. We look so much like the world, I feel God saying

refuel, reboot, reconnect to Him. Young people are dying at an early age, speak life into all you can.

Simply look at them and say “God bless You” will their life change. Yes, cause I believe HE IS RISEN and

HIS WORD DOES NOT RETURN TO HIM VOID!

​PeggyLynn

Lately I’ve been looking at the pieces of the puzzle God has given me. I’m to feed the homeless and last year I was at a food pantry. Standing in line at 6am, (open at 9) it was cold and people I probably wouldn’t speak to were in line (oops did I think I was better?). I marveled that some people really needed this and was thankful. Some people had made a science of it and was going to visit another outlet when they left here. All and all they all were nice (rude awakening). Me…I could have skipped a meal or two but I honestly knew God was showing me something. I pulled up into my apartment complex and asked a total stranger who walks for exercise, if she could use any food. I had more than enough and didn’t want to waste the food. She burst out in tears and shared how she had asked God, how am I going to make it this week?
See I have to believe that all that I’ve been through, has been for God to know, if He can trust me. He knows this is not my plans for me but will I freak out and wallow in a pity party (had many of them), will I blame someone else (what’s your number)! Will I just go through the fire and learn about ME. God knows I can take it, but I didn’t. When you get pass what people say or even think about you. When the smoke clears…you see you still standing! The beatitudes use to baffle me. What you mean turn the other check, for them to hit me again??? Steal my jacket…give them my overcoat, now that’s a challenge. I thought it was all literally, but I’ve found it can be spiritually as well. You tell me what I do for God in the church, should be out of love. But you pay your family members everytime the church doors open. Smiling faces, smiling faces, mine was glued on. Let people walk over me cause I thought it was the right thing to do (keep the drama down). People ask the darnest questions! God said just cause they ask, doesn’t mean you have to answer them. God took my use to be, anger issues and said you wanna be like me…then never say a mumbling word. I cried show me how….years later I have master what He said. I can actually walk away from lies, my personal business blurted out by a trusted source. I’m thought to be a wimp by family and closest friends. The joy is the twinkle in my eye, as I feel Him say, good girl! I’ve seen Him destroy spirits in others by me walking away. My tongue will never be organ donor material (to many teeth marks). I did tell one lady, look I’m just one prayer away from a relapse, so you best leave me alone.
What I’m trying to say is never compare your life or relationship with God with someone else. Every Chapter in the Bible has a specific name, a specific assignment, a lesson learned, believe something happened and only God knows it’s purpose. When your life is not going as you thought, and you can’t make lemonade. When the smoke clears, do you still Love HIM!

Yours Truly,
​Peggylynn

I was never a problem child but I did have problems. I was molested which caused anxiety, depression, low self-esteem, and anger. After having my first daughter I lost her father to prison. After losing him I met back up with my best friend of 4 years who vowed to be there for my daughter. Sticking to his promise we got married, broke up, got back together, and repeated the cycle. I suffered seven years of domestic violence trying to make my marriage work. Failing to do so I am now fighting in a divorce.
I was so fed up after many false promises that he would leave and give me the home for me and the children, so I packed me and my children's things and went to a homeless shelter. Trying to avoid confrontation, I became jobless for two months without any help from my husband while he lived in the home that we built together. Making the move away from my husband was a hard life lesson and definition of real struggles for myself, my children, and our future outcome. We relied on him and he was our comfort. The stability he provided kept me in a bondage but something better had to come out of it.
As a mother I wanted to stay married for my children, as a young girl I wanted to stay married because of God, and as a woman I decided to get a divorce to better myself. If I ever accomplished anything in life it was taking a stand and doing what had to do for my children and my happiness. I not regret anything about my marriage. I have learned my worth and how to choose someone that is worthy having of me. I learned not to settle and how to keep my relationship health and alive.
I am extremely happier than I was before and I know now not to force something when it does not feel right. Gaining my independence was a magical feeling that goes beyond explanation.
Not wanting to be a sinner or being judged made me feel like I had no choice but to everyone has a choice. Now that I have been through all of these struggles no problem is too big!
Moving forward, I encourage all who I was never a problem child but I did have problems. I was molested which caused anxiety, depression, low self-esteem, and anger. After having my first daughter I lost her father to prison. After losing him I met back up with my best friend of 4 years who vowed to be there for my daughter. Sticking to his promise we got married, broke up, got back together, and repeated the cycle. I suffered seven years of domestic violence trying to make my marriage work. Failing to do so I am now fighting in a divorce.
I was so fed up after many false promises that he would leave and give me the home for me and the children, so I packed me and my children's things and went to a homeless shelter. Trying to avoid confrontation, I became jobless for two months without any help from my husband while he lived in the home that we built together. Making the move away from my husband was a hard life lesson and definition of real struggles for myself, my children, and our future outcome. We relied on him and he was our comfort. The stability he provided kept me in a bondage but something better had to come out of it.
As a mother I wanted to stay married for my children, as a young girl I wanted to stay married because of God, and as a woman I decided to get a divorce to better myself. If I ever accomplished anything in life it was taking a stand and doing what had to do for my children and my happiness. I do not regret anything about my marriage. I have learned my worth and how to choose someone that is worthy of having me. I learned not to settle and how to keep my relationship health and alive.
I am extremely happier than I was before and I know now not to force something when it does not feel right. Gaining my independence was a magical feeling that goes beyond explanation.
Not wanting to be a sinner or being judged made me feel like I had no choice but to everyone has a choice. Now that I have been through all of these struggles no problem is too big!  Moving forward, I encourage all women in their situations to take a stand and demand a king, worth of a queen or let them WALK.

Dear Heavenly Father,
I come in the Precious Name of Jesus, just wanting to Thank you for watching over me last night and waking me up to see another day. I welcome the Sweet Holy Spirit to enter into this earthern vessel. Bless me Lord Jesus to be in proper alignment with what was written of me from the beginning of time. Thank you for giving me true understanding that my sins are forgiven. The shedding of your blood made it all possible and I have Your Power living within me to say No.  All I have to do is want to give up all ungodly spirits that have me bound. When I was drinking alcohol and got tired…I brought to you and you gradually took it. When I wanted to give up drugs…I gave to you and again you took it…helped me to let it go. I am a living witness that you are gentle and kind and my past is the past. Lord Jesus… I have come to realize you are my only friend, all others are acquaintances. You use them and family to shape and mold me into who you know that I am.  Thank you for blessing me to look past the drama and see the Awesome Hand of God. This has only been accomplished by spending more time with you. Sometimes it’s in study time and sometimes it’s in quietness, shutting everything out. No T.V., no radio… finding my own secret place wherever it may be. You are the only gentleman I know that shows up like you keeping an appointment, like I’m special. I will rejoice in this day cause I know that your going to spend it with me. The fact that there are billions and billions of people on this earth does not keep you from coming to see about me. For that…I will seek your Face. 
                                                                                                                              Love you dearly… Me.     

Patrese