This was a rough week for me - one of those weeks that I had to pause and reflect on where I was in life; soley based off of how run down I felt! I was beginning to feel overwhelmed, and knew it was time to take inventory of things again - like what 'needed to go' and what 'needed to stay'. Anytime I go from day to day - sleeping, but not feeling rested (due to stress and busyness)- anxiety is at the door. I try to push through - not wanting to be lazy or to 'do the right thing' -- but I quickly (and finally) realize that it's not me --- but rather it's my schedule. I put demands on my body and mind, that I absolutely cannot keep up with. I mean, they are all good things (I think, anyway) , like: work, school, kids (single mother), volunteering, church/ministry work, kids activities.........homework......bills........house-hunting......house-cleaning (of where I live now...) ...friends and their activities.......and..so on. How could I dare skip OR leave out *anything*?? I mean, it's all *good*, right? I want to do them!
Well. I guess you CAN eliminate things, when your body says, "No".
And sure, they can all be called 'good' things to some of us, but maybe not good: ALL AT ONE TIME.
Even some of the things I might argue and say I am *meant* to do them - just not all at one time.
Give every last drop back to God! And ask Him to reveal what you should be doing - right now. Pray and ask Him to send someone as well, that can give you 'wise counsel'. That person's lifestyle and choices will indicate the kind of help you will receive - so don't waste your time. I read something on Psychology Today that said something like this: Goals are great! But, not alllll at one time; that creates unrealistic goals and anxiety/stress, from demands on yourself that no one could meet. Prioritize them; and do them one at a time.
Upon waking up this morning, I read this verse (see left photo):
God was instructing me (in the form of a 'visual' - that's what this passage does for me), how to protect myself from wrong decisions and temptation to do things ' my way'. Kinda like a new stance to take, in order to remain clear:§ Keep my back turned - to desires that waste my time, energy, aren't really good for me, or don't produce what I need.
§ Keep a fresh and open relationship with God EVERYDAY - making it the first thing I do each day (spending time with Him).
§ Decide to maintain distance from things that tempt me, that keep me farther away from my goals and God-given destiny, or that complicates my everyday life and it's environment as well.
In decision making, and what I choose to think upon: prioritize my need and desire to have a 'purified heart, undivided loyalty to God's way, and clean hands'. With these things produces the rest of what is mentioned in the passage:
closeness with God, a pure heart, single loyalty, real repentance (actual change), and a humbled character, that God will and does honor.
A simple prayer:
God, I first thank you and honor you with my heart that you have taken care of me and preserved me since birth for a special purpose; and because you love me. You tell me in your WORD to specifically ask for wisdom from you - without wavering -or divided loyalty. I acknowledge your Sovereignty over everything, and your desire that I be on the right path for me. Because of Your grace, Your mercy and love, I am free from mistakes through repentance and can thankfully move on without looking back. Show me how to make decisions that are wise and conducive for my life - regardless of how it may cause other well-intended people feel. Show me what to keep, and what needs to go. Reveal to me please, my purpose in You, in this life You blessed me with. Life is a gift from God. I ask you to open my eyes, and with clarity and the ability to see things as you see them (2 Kings 6:17; Philip. 2:5; 1:9-10). Reveal to me my priorities, and problem areas. Teach me order, and my household order.. and the wisdom to keep it more often. In Jesus name, Amen!